Happy Vs Healthy

Hello fellow Spoonies,

Today's blog post is about the difference between being happy and being healthy. Chronically Ill people are still able to be happy despite being unhealthy.

As someone with a Chronic Illness, I always find it hard to explain to people that I am ill constantly, I am always in pain and I am never in good health. So when people see me enjoying myself, smiling and being happy, I'm always faced with the question "are you feeling better?" Or even worse "I'm glad you're feeling better."

No.

As I have struggled daily with my health for the past couple of years, I have had to learn to accept that I will never be healthy, but I still have to carry on with my life like everybody else. I have many different coping methods, and a lot of them include doing things that make me happy such as:
Spending time with friends and family,
Singing along to music in the car,
Enjoying a cocktail night,
Going out to a club or bar,
Going on trips to theme parks, the theatre or to do outdoor activities.

All of these things make me happy, and admittedly, some of them are at the expense of my health. However, despite me having fun and enjoying myself, I am still in pain and I am still not "cured" or "better". Enjoying myself and doing things I like can be used as distraction and therefore my pain is not at the forefront of my mind.

Sometimes Chronically Ill people have to make the decision between being either happy OR healthy, because doing things that make us happy can cause the pain and exhaustion to get worse, but it can be worth it. Other times, we have to turn down the opportunity to do things that make us happy because we have to put our health first. This can be a very hard decision at times, and I don't always make the right decision. But that is something I will learn over time.

For those who do not suffer from Chronic Illness, please understand that Spoonies can be both Happy and Unhealthy and sometimes we have to choose between Happy or Healthy.

As always, comments and suggestions are appreciated :)

Love and Spoons,

Allie x x x

Constant Pain

Hello fellow Spoonies,

This blog post attempts to explain the Constant Pain myself and other Spoonies go through and how it affects our every day lives. 

One of my earliest memories I have is me sat on my mum’s lap in the hospital waiting to be seen by a specialist for my “poorly tummy ache”. Before I had even reached my first birthday, I had seen gastroenterologists due to stomach and bowel problems; I was in a lot of pain and by the time I was 5, I was on a prescribed medication to help with this. So, when I tell you that my Chronic Abdominal Pain is constant and incurable, believe me -I’ve been suffering since before I could even remember.

After years of tests, scans, fad diets, exercise routines and appointments with specialist doctors, I was finally diagnosed with Chronic Abdominal Pain at age 14. Chronic Pain by definition, is pain that has lasted more than 12 weeks; however, it often persists for months or years. For me, it is a lifetime.

Having to cope with constant pain is a complex skill that only those who have will understand. As a Spoonie, I do things in levels of pain that other people wouldn’t even dream of getting out of bed in. Everything is a challenge, from getting out of bed and having a shower to walking around town or even writing this blog post. Although my current diagnosis is Chronic Abdominal Pain, that does not mean that only my abdomen hurts. My whole body is in a constant state of agony, with my abdomen being even worse than the rest. Every day I feel pain from my toes, up my legs, to my hips and lower back, all through my torso and neck and then down my shoulders, arms and fingers.

Constant pain affects people in many ways: emotionally, physically, socially and even economically. Chronic Pain can affect me emotionally, because on the bad days my mind runs wild with reasons why I may deserve the pain I have and how weak I am for not coping with it like I should be. Physically, there are days when I am unable to move or walk at all, and I spend a lot of time in the bath or doubled over in bed trying my hardest to relax the pain just even a little bit. The pain also stops me from going out and spending time with friends and family because I am not able to cope with leaving the house or travelling far. I am unable to work a normal job due to the pain holding me back, and the money that I do earn goes straight back out to prescriptions, alternative therapies and private doctors.

Everyone who suffers from Chronic Pain can relate to this in different ways, but we learn that we must accept that we will be in pain constantly, and to be aware of our limits in order to not push further than we can go. This is a constant struggle and something that people have been attempting to master for years, but like someone with Diabetes avoids eating foods high in sugar, Spoonies make accommodations in their life to avoid flare ups.

As always, I value any comments or suggestions :)

Love and Spoons,

Allie x x x

Introducing ChronicAllie

Hello fellow Spoonies,

Welcome to ChronicAllie! Thank you for taking the time to look at this blog. This is my first one so bear with me!

My name is Allie, I'm 19 years old and I currently live with the diagnosis of Chronic Pain Syndrome and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome.

It has recently passed my 19th Birthday, and therefore my 5 year diagnosis anniversary, so to mark this milestone, I have decided to write a blog about my journey with Chronic Illness. In my 19th year, I have decided that my aim is to make people more aware of Chronic Illness and the effect it has on the lives of sufferers and their friends and family. 

My Chronic Illnesses have affected many aspects of my life, but most recently it has affected my education. Unfortunately, I had to drop out of university due to the lack of understanding from the lecturers and staff, and my biggest flare up yet (more on this soon). So at this point, I am currently working as a High Ropes Instructor, and spending a lot of time reading blogs about other people's personal experiences with Chronic Illness.

These blogs have helped me to cope with flare ups and to feel less isolated, and I hope to bring the same comfort to others with a blog of my own. I also aim to bring awareness to Chronic Illness and the daily struggles us Spoonies deal with. If I only make one person more aware of Chronic Illness, that would be an amazing achievement!

I hope you all enjoy reading my blog and I would value and comments or suggestions :)

Love and Spoons,
Allie x x x